My Panel's Are Up

Basically, I'm working on my panels for 2018-2019, yes, these are pretty late in the year, but Daku Con is in November and Colorado Anime Fest is in April 2019. So here I am at the end of July working on something I should have started back in June and compiling information. The truth is I was distracted by working on both my book and a fanfic.

While I admit yes, fan fiction was and is still a thing I do some of the time, it is to blow off steam and honestly, some don't end up on my pages due to issues I have had with some people. The reviews I got back in the day are pretty damn funny and yes, I cannot believe I wrote some of these stories because in all yes, they are all pretty bad.

My fiance has found me an artist for my book even though some of my artwork is my own doing and still as you can see for my blog, yes, some of the artwork is MINE. Truthfully I do not talk about the book work at the moment because I had a bit of a shock to deal with.

I have my opinions on books and have always disliked C.S. Lewis because he seemed to be always talking Religiously about things in his novels. There are just some things I try to avoid in my writing and that is putting a religion on my characters or an overtone of religions. The fact that I have one species in my story that live entirely without magic and yet are perfectly all right with that kind of things. Then there is the fact I did not write my stories to focus on religious aspects.

So that has been it so far. I am not really up for much chatter on the matter of the book work right now, it is more I am finishing up details and closing out my first book, then unto the second and third.

Delayed yet again and panels for November

I am delayed in finishing my posts yet again, and this is all due to my own problems being tired and working. Does not help that I am floating myself and fiance and the only breadwinner right now, so my focus has been split down the middle between bills that are late and my panels.

I am working on three panels, two are finished and finalized, the other is yet to have its powerpoint built so don't try and get me to write it all down. I am still researching material on Japanese Urban Legends.

I am also tired of being asked to do things and then at the last minute a friend or someone else will back out so yeah, that kind of happens. 

The saddest part is I cannot make Westercon this year and will be working on my panels and also writing my stories. Writing fantasy is getting harder and with how I see the world changing negatively, I am terrified if I do publish, my story will be lost in the midst of people who do not understand me. T_T Such is the way of things, but I will be working more

Setting up for writing draft 1

I have started working on my first draft, but my confidence is kind of shot, truthfully, I'm basically feeling cheap.The fact is I refused to allow my ex to touch any draft of the book I am working on and the reason is simple. He thinks he is all that an a bag of chips, mostly he feels he is entitled to stuff and comes from money. I really do not feel it makes him worth while to edit me or speak to me on the matter of my own writing.

I have been attempting to brighten my mood and I have not eaten in a day, which is not normal, usually I will have cereal or something, but I am just not interested in eating while I write. Not to mention, considering that right now, I am alienated to my writing, considering my ex is snippy and likes to dominate a room and attention.

I cannot afford to move out and live alone, but I really wish I could give my fiance his space and his friends. I would accept a job in Broomfield.

A convention attempt

I made it to Colorado Anime Fest on its last day, I was very impressed with the convention and for the most part of the people who were there. I would not mind working this convention as a panelist and also being again able to bring people the love of what research can bring.

The truth is, today was an escape from worrying about writing, I was wanting to just sit down and enjoy my photography and enjoy a convention.

This escape made so much easier and also made it more fun to come up with ideas of what my world in my stories should be like. I am trying so hard to convey something and somehow going to Colorado Anime Fest was well worth it.

I am still working on that dang scene

I have not spoken about what is going on in the scene in general because I have been sworn not talk about it. The truth is, that a scene of which a person gets their ego knocked down to the point he kind of deserves doesn't always work.

A scene that I was unhappy with...

Musculed through a scene that I did not like and though it was part of the story, I decided not to talk about it for a while, but now that I fixed it, at least I hope so.

A character based off an Anime....Full Metal Panic! (NOT ALCHEMIST)

Okay, I loved the series Full Metal Panic! yes, that's the series, it is freaking silly and also there is a few problems with the show. I did realize it was a comedy.

Also I designed a character with the cast of the show in mind, the truth is one of the characters is actually from the show. There was just so much weird crap from the show that I had to work on.