There are times I hate being distracted

After being trolled and voicing my opinion, I'm of the opinion that there is a huge problem when I think about writing on my own. I'm sitting in a corner wondering what kind of thoughts I can illustrate when I get people telling me online that I'm worthless.

I'm actually terrified of actually getting somewhere in my book. The truth is, even if I publish and it is considered amazing. I'm terrified of what would happen, I will suddenly get attacked for things and some of which I'm scared of the mental strain of what could happen.

Truthfully, I have thought about the sayings about insulting what is considered a "Snowflake" is okay. I have felt discriminated against before, and most times the discrimination is pretty bad. I don't want to be told I will never succeed. I got told that by several people who support something I can't be a supporter, they just hate on you for no reason and when you don't agree, it hurts at times, then you just realize that reasoning with hate is not a good thing.

After I blocked him, I realized what he wrote is exactly like the people who abused me online simply because they said being a writer is stupid. The sad part is I defended them too.

Paranoid about writing

Okay, back when I first started to write, I was given several threats regarding writing the Dragon's Library the first couple of times. I don't know why someone would think so horribly about it, then again,being told that if I write this, I would face a lawsuit. I was a bit paranoid about it and just thought, Okay, these people are either psycho or weird...so I'm going to write.

There are some other ideas I have thought about it, but I wondered if I should continue writing something, then I'm going to be writing on the story, but I'm still going to be looking over my shoulder. The honest fact is that having people who were former friends who think I owe them something, but I won't owe them a thing. I swear I won't ever give them a damn dime for what I do or what I write.

The truth is, I hate the fact that writing my own stories and working on my own fiction and honestly, i don't know what else I can do. I try to stay positive in my thoughts, but it is kind of hard when you go to a convention and get reminded of one thing, that your former friends will stab you no matter what you do.

Taking a short break and building a panel

I am starting on a panel on Japanese Urban Legends and some of the stuff I'm finding is otherwise giving me the creeps. Some of them I am just going to chuck up to my over active imagination. Truthfully I am finishing up some of the panel stuff as well as making it for Animeland Wasabi 2018.

I'm still a little annoyed that one person in my group of friends thinks he knows what he's talking about because he in fact has no idea what I'm doing.

The Influencing factor and mentally needing to type

Typing up a draft is like typing up a memoir of a mad woman, but that's just me, I have been wondering where to go with my projects at the moment. Summer has been busy and yes, I have been working at a new job and it has been kind of nice to not have to return to one work place to another that has a slightly more complex views of what employees are like.

The truth is, yes, I miss one family, now I have another which is worth while and I have now got friends who are just as priceless.

While hunting for an editor, my ex-boyfriend is out and now my fiance is telling me he found me one, but I have to start to really type up what I have. So far though I started to realize that something was oddly stressful.

The Book Issue

I was looking around my library books, and I realized I must have forgotten whether or not I should check out more books on writing again. Then again, I'm going to be returning to a writer's group that I had to leave due to bad scheduling. 

I am considering that writing everything I could about fantasy, but working on a side project on Wattpad.