Taking on too much? I don't know anymore

I have been working on a panel which is common for me, but for Daku Con, I'm working 3 of them. I was reading so much on the topics. I'm also on a goal for the next few years, the truth is I am not sure if I am going to do panels.

I have been wondering if I took too much on, but then again this is a normal stresser for me.

I have been emotionally worrying over things, there are somethings I have been scared of, mostly my political thoughts are something I try to hide from my writing. I am terrified of the idea that people will realize that I am of certain mental thought and I hide it from my writing.

I am not a fan of racism, the truth is, I find people who liken themselves as White Nationalists are not the audience of fans I want to be around. I am not the kind of person who wants to ever be around those kinds of people because they are cruel and not humane. I have more interest in people getting along.

Reading and....a movie, okay 2 movies

All right, I spent my days off not working on my editing and also decided to go to two movies, one was My Little Pony The Movie, I was deeply impressed with it. I was not sure what I would talk about it. I was reading the reviews of some of my friends and truthfully, I do not read them, I just thought it was awesome. I was extremely inspired by the fact that it was a kids movie, but also it was a movie that I related to.

The next movie was Tokyo Ghoul, a movie I had no real interest in but suddenly I realized how interesting it was. I watched the show a little bit, but I was not entirely interested, now I am. I was sort of like, okay, I need to watch this and pay attention again to this. I have not watched a good Japanese horror movie in a long time where the monsters were the hero.

The truth is that I enjoyed the movies and also hope that it helps me with my writing again. I have not spoken about movies again. I do not really want to deal with anyone else but my friends right now. I am now not looking forward to dealing with a certain former friend coming up and demanding something from me.

Going to a Convention in November

Well...I'm doing 3 panels at a convention, I have been preparing and excitedly waiting for the news, I am pretty much working my tail off. I have not said anything to many people about it, other than my friends on Facebook. The truth is that I know that people are still jumping to conclusions about what I'm doing.

The truth is, my fiance has about 7 panels and half the time I'm hoping that he is able to help pay for the hotel room that I am helping him with. I'm also working on a few other things too. I have edited and re-edited my work, but I'm still not sure what I'm doing anymore, I'm just getting frustrated. I am sure that it is just me needing this convention as a break.

I have been having some issues in my head about what is going on; I had a nightmare regarding a former friend showing up at the convention. Though I can see someone leading me away and the words, "You don't need to see this," the truth is, I don't know who is leading me away, but my fiance is the one blowing up. He isn't blowing up at me, it's at this former friend and about the fact that she won't let things go or about the fact that she was chased out.

How this all started was in 2015, with a faithful problem at the hospital and my fiance being sick, my former friend was someone who wanted me to be thrown out. She was not interested in improving my life, but she was more interested in making everyone follow her around. She actually wanted to declaw my cat, she wanted me to throw away things from my hobbies because she did not like it. So I decided to put my foot down, my friends did too.

I was asked if it was worth all this pain and my fiance said that Star Wars my hobby and this girl just wanted to take it all away. So in 2015, Lee and I decided and made a pact to never let these things happen again. To this day, I'm scared of her showing up, that she would make a confrontation, which she never has since because of my insolation of friends.

The truth is, that if I see her, I'm certainly ignoring her...she is not exactly what I would call a nerd, she's not even aware of what it is to be nerdy. All she cares about is writing porn

When you are out

I was getting inspired this afternoon and was walking the neighborhood, usually, I carry a camera and taking pictures. I get so much thought about my neighborhood. There are just so much I have to do...

Bet you can tell I love Halloween, it is still something that makes me happy that fall comes at all. I do Yule, but I have pictures of Halloween because I love the decorations. The costumes that neighbor's have some of the greatest ideas. I can't wait to see it.

Editing and mixing styles

Okay, I did something I never thought I would say, I was given the worst advice, the truth is, that my writer's support group is actually way better on advice. I made the suggestion of what I am writing and I need to finish it. The truth is that being told that I'm too sensitive. I am kind of to the point of just telling my ex to take a hit in the head.

I have been mixing Dahl and Prachett, yeah...I kind of did it as an exercise in writing.