The Less Glamorious RESEARCH MODE

Yes, I have been digging around in some books on Japanese Mythology getting ideas and rekindling an old passion of mine. I have a few characters that are based on Japanese characters and sometimes even months. Though I don't really have sketches of characters I have worked on.

I have been wanting to do a picture of Marco the Mousling and see if I can make him kind of in what I think he should look like, along with Ms. Ripple the Vixen so we can establish what I'm wanting for my writing. The mystical creatures of the world I'm working on is still eluding more than I expected.

Eventually I will be introducing new artwork and also seeking out people who might want to draw up characters.

As for the work for Daku Con, it will be more about it when October hits and I'm working on character designs for future mock ups.

That nagging feeling won't go away

I was editing something and then my thoughts went back to the panel, yes, I have not said much of what it is like to deal with it. I do not want the drama of 2015 to come back and bite myself and my fiance who has no idea this blog exists sometimes. I have used this to express my desire as a writer to figure out what direction the Library will go and also how the book will look in the future.

As for book news, a new character was introduced recently and yes, I have not put him out for anyone to know who he is because well...the story is not quite hashed out. I have yet to develop his back story and I'm starting to think about doing character sheets for my characters like in Dungones and Dragons.

The whole concept of the writing right now is going to continue to bug the hell out of me.

Living with anxiety

I was thinking about all the shit I went through back in 2015 and the honest factor is that I'm to the point that I am going to throw it to the wind. I am just going to say, "So what...."

The truth is that back in the past, 2015, a certain former friend was trying to control my tastes, but she failed horribly. The girl is someone who I am waiting for to attempt to chase me out of a convention. That waiting is just something that may or may not happen.

Panels were accepted! Daku Con here...I come

The truth is I am very proud that I am doing panels for Daku Con in Colorado.This convention is amazing and I will be helping my fiance with his panels, but this is the year I will openly discuss Fan Fiction going into Fiction.

I am honestly not sure how I'm going to handle my anxiety considering that a certain former friend might be there. She has been attempting to be a writer herself, but honestly, she's the kind of selfish person who would claim someone would plagiarize her. The truth is, that I'm kind of nervous.

I'm hoping that I continue my work.

Preparing for November in August

I bought my tickets to Daku Con and also submitted my panels and doing work on a panel handout and a few other information items. I'm also working on some short stories on the side. I have been wanting to do fan fiction again.

I was working on several panels about Fan Fiction to Writing Fiction. I am hoping it is a success.

I was also looking at articles regarding something that I thought I would never think to bring up ever again about my past. The truth is that no matter how far I dig myself out of my great aunt's life, I'm still stuck with it. I have told people that many times I wish that my mother's aunt would just stay dead, she's been dead for so many years and when I people realize who my family was, I am always trying to say, "Not me!"

Watching MLP's newest Episode

While watching this I was upset at first, the first problems I thought is if I became a best seller, I had this fear that people would attack me over what I write, fictional as it is. I don't want to people to come to my house and start talking to me about how weird I am or how I'm not normal or that my characters are as they are.

The truth is that while watching this, I saw how much like Twilight Sparkles I am truly like I do not want to be like her at all, but it is the idea that I might be afraid to succeed. Success comes with stress, but I think as I continue to write the book, I know that people from my past might come back and hurt me because of it.

Starting on the Short Stories

I have been working on the Dragon's Library material, but I am also starting to work on a collection of short stories, mostly short stories. I am hoping to see new ideas for artwork for the library.

I will be going to Mile Hi Con, I have thought about writing for a living and for many reasons I do not want to go back again.

I know people might think I might write some expose about what happened to me, jokes on them writing fantasy novels does not count. The truth is I am waiting for two former friends to come out of the woodwork.

Maybe not going...

I truthfully don't ever want to visit England with the way things go, I don't support Donald Trump or the vies of hating someone based on race or religion, because why? Books and literature are more important and Japan has some pretty good literary contributions.

I had wanted to see Roger Puliver's office in England here he studied Kenj Miyazawa's poetry, but I'm thinking that is just a dream in itself. I would rather study it from afar than deal with people who think that as I am an America, I must have voted for the rat in office.

Right now, I'm waiting for Donald Trump to turn into the next Hitler and just see what happens, the truth is, I have had dread in my hear since the election.

Collecting my short fiction

I have been collecting my short stories and getting ready to post them on Wattpad and then continue to write some short stories to make a collection of my own. I don't really foresee problems. I am hoping though that whoever is watching my Wattpad that has been negative toward it would stop.

I'm kind of thankful that my Sarahha page has been otherwise been quiet.

Some more fiction

Yes, I am working on some fan fiction and more and then going through more. I am not going go discuss much on the matter. The problems I have right now are that ethnocentric...are there.

Submitted early

I had been doing a short story so I submitted my story early, which was only due on the 25th of August, which is fine. I have not said much on the projects I work on, but I am thinking maybe I should start submitting some stories and maybe something will get picked up. I'm not sure if I should say much more than that.

I was working on some parts of The Dragon's Library and was hoping to say much more, but I'm also preparing for Mile Hi Con and Daku Con. I have not said much about the conventions I'm going to because I am not sure who is reading my journal at the moment.

I have not said much on what I'm doing at a convention, but usually I have these weird feelings about certain things, one of which is a former friend. Usually she hangs with a good friend of mine, but she has the worst negative vibe about her, but when I see her at conventions I want to run away or at least say something because I never can understand her. She claims to hate Anime and yet she shows up to these things.

I am hoping that at Animeland Wasabi 2018, that I can run my panels because I have several panels that I'm working on.