Setting up for writing draft 1

I have started working on my first draft, but my confidence is kind of shot, truthfully, I'm basically feeling cheap.The fact is I refused to allow my ex to touch any draft of the book I am working on and the reason is simple. He thinks he is all that an a bag of chips, mostly he feels he is entitled to stuff and comes from money. I really do not feel it makes him worth while to edit me or speak to me on the matter of my own writing.

I have been attempting to brighten my mood and I have not eaten in a day, which is not normal, usually I will have cereal or something, but I am just not interested in eating while I write. Not to mention, considering that right now, I am alienated to my writing, considering my ex is snippy and likes to dominate a room and attention.

I cannot afford to move out and live alone, but I really wish I could give my fiance his space and his friends. I would accept a job in Broomfield.

A convention attempt

I made it to Colorado Anime Fest on its last day, I was very impressed with the convention and for the most part of the people who were there. I would not mind working this convention as a panelist and also being again able to bring people the love of what research can bring.

The truth is, today was an escape from worrying about writing, I was wanting to just sit down and enjoy my photography and enjoy a convention.

This escape made so much easier and also made it more fun to come up with ideas of what my world in my stories should be like. I am trying so hard to convey something and somehow going to Colorado Anime Fest was well worth it.

I am still working on that dang scene

I have not spoken about what is going on in the scene in general because I have been sworn not talk about it. The truth is, that a scene of which a person gets their ego knocked down to the point he kind of deserves doesn't always work.

A scene that I was unhappy with...

Musculed through a scene that I did not like and though it was part of the story, I decided not to talk about it for a while, but now that I fixed it, at least I hope so.

A character based off an Anime....Full Metal Panic! (NOT ALCHEMIST)

Okay, I loved the series Full Metal Panic! yes, that's the series, it is freaking silly and also there is a few problems with the show. I did realize it was a comedy.

Also I designed a character with the cast of the show in mind, the truth is one of the characters is actually from the show. There was just so much weird crap from the show that I had to work on.

Trying to take a break

I had a stressful break brought on the fact that there is just someone that comes to the house who just wants me to move out. Me being there just throws everything off for him, he thinks his way is the only way to do anything. When I set a boundary I'm suddenly the one at fault, so I decided to give up and let this person just have their way.

Truthfully, people say this is your home, but when this person is here, it is NOT my home, I'm just something in the way. Even when I came home from my bike ride, he just acted like I wasted time and did something wrong. He was glaring at me or waiting for me to ask what I did wrong.

The truth is I was sort of talking about the issue that bike might have if I check the shocks again and I will be checking the rest of the tire pressure and stance. This is the first time I owned a bike like this that is purely a mountain bike that has a few constructional issues. Something I will bring up to Lee and only him when we're alone.

The truth is that this has slowed down the Dragon's Library because if I even publish, this one person will persist that Lee and I did this with his help. I want to independently publish and not deal with some richie rich like this person. The truth is, I don't think rich people will read what I have to write and I do not even think that I want the rich to read my book because they will just be some kind of snob and act like I owe them something.

I have never liked rich people, they always snub the poor and treat others like they are supposed to be walked on. I get tired of being walked on, when I write the book it is my freedom from their limits. I want to write because it is something I love.

Welcome to February...

Here I am wondering where the hell do I type up half my stuff for the book, and I'm doing book reviews on top of all this. I have had to deal with so much weird stuff. Then I fund out my work computer does not have word or anything I can use that is like it...ugh!

I asked myself a hundred weird questions and end up dreaming up my next part of the Planor adventures, while I'm still stuck in second half of first book, while my brain is somewhere in book 2. If this doesn't help me, I don't know what will.

So far, I will be doing an outline of a new character, putting together a side story, then working on closing out the month with a huge yell and shout to some people.

Also as of April, StarFest and Daku Con maybe the only conventions for the entire year, and also I was hoping to do some testing on The Dragon's Library test readings with a few friends. I read the story to my friend, Angel who was jumping on the bed in our hotel room asking for more. Now I have to complete the story or I won't hear the end of it.