Putting yourself out there at....an Anime con

Yes, I was talking to a publishing company at an Anime Convention, I was sort of hoping for that whole, this can't be real...great...now what? I don't know, I don't have a business card, nor do I want one considering the last time I put one together, I must have thought it looked horrible. I have told no one of the plans, nor will I considering I kind of ran into a former friend.

I honestly hoped that she wouldn't attempt to be a downer, but honestly, I'm kind of glad I didn't say one word to her, and also considering my phone is changed, no harassing IMs. So I'm kind of glad she didn't look on here either, then again, I doubt she would read a journal about writing and its trappings, she's already convinced I'm too old fashioned.

Oh well...so far, the convention in itself was actually kind of fun, I didn't stay at the hotel ,but I'm returning next year and running panels. I have run several over the year, but I had to take a year off last year to gather my thoughts.

So far, I'm planning on doing one on Japanese Horror Movies and Anime, I'm Over It; A Guide to Handle Drama and Fandom Shinangians, and Fanfiction to Writing My Own Fiction. Sort of an idea of what I'm going to talk about next year.

Editing while upset

As I am no fan of our president, I did not vote for him, I had to sit through his new Supreme Court nominee thing and it was sickening. I wanted nothing to do with it, considering I was waiting for Jeopardy, but it seems that even watching that never cooled my nerves.

I am sitting there in a break room brought out my book while eating some bread and drinking a soda, editing Chapter 4 or 5 of my book, I'm sorry, I was too tired to think only to write down and edit, so that was my mind set as of yesterday night.

I said nothing to anyone about how I felt until later, I'm sorry to put my opinion on here, I'm trying to keep this about writing a book, but I'm am just going to say it now. We are a nation of immigrants, majority of the US citizens have had one or more family members from another country. It is sad to think that we as Americans are now doing what was promised not to do after World War II.

I have Muslim friends who are not terrorists, who have come here as exchange students who want an education that we offered them, now they are told they cannot even enter the country?

I'm sorry, but I did not vote for this president, I do not believe in any of the things he's doing...I am truly sorry for anyone who are reading this from any country. I'm trapped here and I feel the horrible feeling of discrimination against people that I have no hate toward.

I'm going to go back to writing, but still...this is the horrible feeling of watching the news and wondering why...when I have never felt like this is my country anymore.

This writer needs her breaks...

A long editing session and writing session is like a pain when your wrist decides it will hurt for more than a few hours. Being left handed has its worst perks ever...not to mention that moment when you look at your hand and see the black stain of black ink on it and as you go wash it off, you are then back at the service desk. Talk about the mood breaker, I was glad to get my two days off, but ended up not doing anything but watch TV and do laundry.

Much is the life of a person who is often time having a million things running through my head and end up watching old WWII Documentaries and wonder how the hell I get attracted to these things? LOL...yup that's what I do when I'm left on my own and my fiance/editor is out doing his side job. So you can guess that my life is about as interesting as can be.

For the most part I am waiting for "The Magicians" to return to TV and I could enjoy it again, it is one of the few things I love to watch on Sci-Fi channel now called SyFy. At first I was thinking oh great a Harry Potter knock-off, but as I watched, I realized it had much more to it, then I read the book, and have read it and re-read it from time to time to get inspiration for my own writing.

I suppose the fact I admire Lev Glossman and his world and the great many characters and my personal favorite is Eliot.

So there you have it, my day in a nut shell.

Watching and writing

I was writing up some ideas recently when I was brought to my attention that being sick is not an excuse to not do anything. So I was not sure how to say this, but sleeping through some of the illness did help, but this cough is going to be around for awhile.

I am getting ready very early for a trip to Orlando, FL, but it is not for writing reasons, but I am hoping to do some creative writing work while I'm there. I'm not sure what I can bring with me, but I'm editing everything and getting ready to hand off the manuscripts to an editor near May or even June, if that is possible.

I'm going to be working on some artwork too for the story, I'm not sure how people are going to respond to my artwork, but that's just me...I have not been drawing for awhile because I have not felt the desire to draw, but now as I work on the story, I'm getting more and more enthralled to write and draw characters.

Troubling my past

Writing for me is a break from my life, and honestly, I don't love my past as much and getting messages from people while working is not fun. Truthfully, unless its my editor who let's face it, loves to get on me for this or that, I'm not going to get into details over that, considering he's also my fiance.

I'm to the point that I have not been honestly thinking about writing for a few days considering that I'm still plotting a trip to Orlando with my nephew and working on fun stuff. I'm no entirely sure what the hell is going on at the moment.

The message from a person from my past is a little annoying, but I'm like, okay, M.M. you can handle this kind of stuff, don't think it bad. Truthfully, it was more guilt trip than anything else, I just remained quietly hopeful this person finds their path. I know he's a person who might say this is slander, but I hope he finds his way and not think so ill of people who have hurt him. I moved beyond that and I'm thankful for it.

Yes, I have people in my past I dislike, but I don't go very far with it, I just sit there and shake my head as they make asses of themselves, while I just watch. It is not my place to say anything against them or do anything, I can say my peace of my disappointments in life, but I'm not going to talk anymore of these people who have hurt me...I write what I feel in my heart in a book, not the doubts of those who doubted me.

When I started this project I was angry at being hurt, at having people force their lives into mine, to block me out or walk all over me. I stopped wanting to make those connections again and made new ones that have been stronger and much more fulfilling, friendship is about meeting people who make the movement to understand, not change the person to suit their needs. Running away may not be an answer for the said person who contacted me, sometimes facing facts, knowing that being a jerk did something to them that made people hate them. That's what matters...

When I was thinking of the fact the library was built on my desire to shut out the world and then build a world of great magic around me, yes, it was selfish, but then I started to make a story. I started designing characters within that world and making sense of it. This is my therapy for losing friends over the years, this is my hope that people who went through the same pain find it too.

Writing and.....I don't know what I just saw on my newsfeed?

I was sitting at my house doing some minor work on the book and I was also glancing at the newfeed of my FB, just out of I don't know...just curious I guess. I saw a press conference that turned into an utter joke, I didn't turn on the sound because I was kind of busy and I didn't want to hear that trash...

I try to keep this page as nonpolitical as possible, I'm a writer not a politician and that's just not place, I just saw CNN and it was just wow...what future do any writers hold fiction or nonfiction? I'm not entirely sure, if this continues on, I'm scared of it.

I will continue with my work and hope to gods that once its met a publisher, I won't have to deal with the horrible thoughts of individuals who doubted this...what do I do?

Happy New Year

Yeah, its 2017, and 2016 left a sour taste in one's own mouth, so I'm proud to kick that year behind and move onto something new and better. As for the book work, yeah, I'm editing and redoing a part and then sitting down with the second book's rough draft and seeing where I'm taking it. I have a clear idea of the purpose and who it focuses on considering what I'm doing.

As for this years convention schedule, its been kind of pushed to the back burner as it were, Mile Hi Con and Myth and Legends Con are still a must, I'm attending to visit other great authors again. Hope they're having a great New Year already.

So that's the report