The Fact a Friend, Hates it

 Okay, I am not going to be nice to someone who is clearly homophobic and also has no idea what I am working on. I have had to stop and rethink ever allowing a friend to beta read a part of the book I am working on. This has caused me to want to pull my hair out and to realize that my friend has no idea what I am working toward.

He utterly gave off the air of a homophobic idiot when he mentioned two characters who are yes, GAY, were not all over each other. To be honest, they are normal people, they have jobs, they don't hold hands all the damn time. They live together, sleep in the same bed, but guess what, they're not HORN DOGS! They're actually mentors and friends, they project outside an air of professionalism, something this person seriously needs to look at when talking to other GAY PEOPLE! 

I have never been so offended in my entire life, to be honest, I was raised around a gay man as a child, he acted just like any other concerned parent. While not my parent, more a babysitter, Tim was a model for how I thought all gay men acted. They work, they talk to men as maybe a potential date, but also as PEOPLE. He treated even a straight person like my parents like they were friends. 

I became rather offended and I wanted to blow up, but somehow I just went on Facebook and attacked C.S. Lewis and that stupid Lion of his. I viewed my former friend, who shall remain nameless as that idiotic LION. I had no idea how to respond other than the fact this person just could not get it through their head that he is utterly misplacing the characters' identities for what he sees on TV or stereotypes.

While I was hurt and not entirely sure, he was saying that I was focusing on an adult audience which I shouldn't be doing. He said as I am a person with a learning disability I should focus on CHILDREN as an audience and abandon Dragon's Library for a has-been story. 

"You should consider writing something like Captain Underpants, or something more toward your mental strengths," of course that wasn't exactly as he said it, but it certainly sounded like it. My brain was shot, I mean I literally just could not handle it anymore. I had enough! 

While I just took a break from the friendship and basically just put him down as, "yes, someone I know, but don't associate with." He made me out to be feeble-minded, this broke my heart, I was now just not sure how to handle it. His wife who is a friend asked me what was wrong because I had ignored her husband's critique entirely and blew up. I don't even care if he sees my blow up, he just ruined my views of my own work. 

As of late, I have replied, "It's complicated, I don't want to talk about it." I am not taking the posts down, but my heart is broken. I want to write my book MY WAY! And to be told my characters need to be removed because oh my gods they're gay is freaking awful. 

Forcing me to gender my nonbinary characters who by the culture I designed don't pick their gender for themselves until adulthood, has not to be discussed yet even on here. I have been waiting on that. I am now just not sure how to deal with it. 

Now that I wrote it out, I am still pissed, I'm beyond angry with the people who discuss this like its a joke! 

Aside from the Drama, the Series Note on my book

 I didn't exactly go into detail last time about how much work I am doing, the side stories which take place in the Planor along side the main story are starting to take some center stage. I did not intend that to happen and while I understand that might not be what was supposed to happen, it did, now I just have to run with it now. 

I did however think about moving some of my shorter stories onto a different medium and make these strictly Wattpad, but then I saw the insult about it. I am opting that Dragon's Library shall remain Kindle to Print set and then work toward the story telling aspect. I'm still curious as to how this works out. I am going to be seeing that it remains something fun, I am also provided my own artwork too. 

I have not spoken to many people regarding it, but someone was not so nice to me about it in the past, but that kind of unpleasantness is not allowed, so I am going to continue to draw. I have no idea how else to say it. I just hope that when I get some of the artwork finished up I can start showing it for the novel, I am going to say that some of the artwork is not entirely there because half of it was not present in the novel. I am re-releasing the first book with the artwork and the poster art that I think will be suitable. 

Slightly freaked out, but moving forward

 I have avoided talking about this person, but I honestly feel like he's just going to show up more as the summer progresses. I have hid within that bubble that COVID-19 built where everyone had a distance of safety, but with the fact he's wandering around, I'm freaking out again. 

The person in question, well...he was and is a copycat to a point, I want to be a writer, he wants to be one. I want to work on a cosplay, he must do so too. Ever since 2007, this guy has been a rock in my shoe, and truthfully, I have been a good sport about it until 2019 it finally became clear that something had to happen. 

While I don't want to go into a detail, what happened to me was pretty much being stalked. For starters texting me about how he doesn't think its fair that I go out with my female friends and we do a Girl's Day Out type thing, where he believes he has a RIGHT to go even when told no several times. He gets upset when told that I was not looking for a boyfriend! 

I honestly don't want to whine about this, I don't honestly want to get mean about it, but something has to give. I have tolerated a neckbeard since 2007. The truth is, he can't accept I am getting married, he can't accept the fact he's not the person I want anywhere near my nephew. I'm terrified of taking my nephew to a convention and suddenly have to confront that fact that this guy is there and he will want to be part of my life. 

He already got upset that I ignored him, he panhandles and when ignored, he decided to get off at a different stop, then get on the same train yet again. This time I am just to the point that I want to run and hide from him. I'm waiting for him to show up and then demand I get off the train or be forced off because he acts like he owns it. 

I have never understood why he believes I am in the wrong when he was the one doing wrong. He accused me of stealing cameras, which I have not, some of which I bought, one was a gift, the other I inherited from my sister. The truth is, he would tell people I lied or that I cheated someone out of the camera. 

The honest factor is that my friends mean the universe to me and this person would try to take that away from me. He already made not want to come to work or even live normally, he has made me want to run away or at least cry my eyes out if I see him.

The other issue is that most times when I reported it or tried to, the proof I give doesn't even work at all, people just say I led him on. I openly rejected him in 2011, I friend zoned him in 2016, I outright blocked and ignored him in 2017-2019, then May of 2019, he literally ruined everything, he said he changed, then nope he didn't. I was basically told that his word is more important than mine. I left groups on FB to find something better, I wanted nothing to do with the Colorado Anime Community because his lies just made it impossible to function. 

Now that its 2021, I feel like I just went backward, that he's just going to PRETEND to be a friend and then use that to make more crap up. I wrote my book and yet, I fear he will say I plagiarized him, when all he does is Anime Music Videos. 

I have not spoken on my book on here, and I have zero clue if that jerk even reads this blog, so if he does, I'm going to point it out. Yes, I know you lied to me, I know you tried to tell me you changed and then decided to become possessive and not allow me my friends. You also pretended to by my boyfriend, which you are not. You have attempted to cause drama, you attempted to throw me to the wolves when you didn't get your way. 

I know you attempted to try and gaslight me, then reworded, "No, I won't consider you if I am ever single," you should have ACCEPTED IT BLINDLY! You should have accepted being friendzoned, you should have accepted being IGNORED you should have accepted the fact that I blocked you. I only unblocked you because I know you too well, you ignored me which I expected. 

Then 2020 happened and you started to follow me, you lied to Sage Tan and I to block and ignore him too. I know that you will read this and then tell people in the Colorado Anime Community you're the victim of slander, which isn't when its the truth. 

You followed a minor around when she was 15 and you were 24, you didn't cover that up too well, she told me the whole story and also how you wouldn't leave her alone. You also was extremely homophobic even though you claimed you weren't. Yeah, you didn't cover up the fact that I figured you out and decided to just expose you. 

While I wrote my novel you got upset that I was focused on writing about a world you would never understand because you don't read. 

I can say my book is doing well and I am glad I did what I did, I'm not going to lie about that and I am going to make an entire blog post about that. 

I guess I will blog here

 While I know that nobody in my house knows about this blog, I guess I can write about how I am feeling and about the work I am doing. I waited awhile for this, but honestly, I think that I might be single at the end of this year due to the actions of a certain friend who is now moving further and further to being a former. 

This morning, I was getting ready for work, I was just using the bathroom, while my roommate has promised to fix the running issue with the toilet. The person in question knew this as well is sleeping on a cot in the basement. 

As I was grabbing my things to leave, he storms upstairs and starts to yell at me about it, I was stunned and thought I left the sink going, but it was the toilet. Basically I felt like I had to now walk a mile to a Circle K near the bus stop to brush my hair and teeth, because I made too much noise 

My fiancé acted as if I was blowing this out as drama, so I guess the relationship is over. I am now single, not that I wanted that now. It is his choice and while I now I have to find a new place to live because my roommate doesn't want me without my fiancé around. So I am now just finding out that I am losing my home and I just lost the relationship all because my fiancé's friend yelled at me. 

I think I am just going to state it, "I will never date or marry or love anyone other than a cat." I will just make my statement that if I have to be single, I'm going to be MISERABLE to be around and just be mean to every potential male or female who doesn't qualify under MY standards of what I want. 

How I see it, I am going to be so damn picky that even making friends will be harder. I don't want to ever be hurt like this again, I really think all people who are from Castle Pines CO, Parker CO are ASSHOLES! 

I never want to go there even if it has pretty places to take pictures at, I know that for a fact that it is just full of ugly people who have no love in their lives. 

I wish I could write something more positive and feel like the entire world around me is just a misery for me to be here. I love how I used to smile and pretend that being yelled at was OK, but it isn't anymore, my fiance calls me toxic. Well, this is a toxic place to be in, so I am just going to build a wall that he can't scale to get to me, I'm just going to be in my shell.

Even if I stay in the relationship, I want to be distant as I can be now, even if this friend is present, I just want to grab my stuff and disappear or just go into a different zone when it comes to me. I think that if I start to distance myself from everyone and just be as secretive as I can, I won't be hurt like this again. I don't blame my fiance he was not the one at fault for this, but his friend was. I will never blame my fiance for the actions that his friends have done. I tried to fit into their cookie cutter, and I can't do it, I'm just going to be a recluse.

I decided that I will just leave all the groups that my fiance and I are in and I just have to walk away from the idea that we're a couple unless we're in public. I can put on the show of the happy girlfriend but I will just be pretending to be someone else as long as they don't notice. I put this act on before when I was around my former roommates.

The other solution is hide behind my writing and just write my novels and pretend nothing is wrong with these people. Just become a hollow shell and not really do anything about the problems anymore, just pack up things and just write whatever I want and hopefully nobody finds out about it all. 

I know for a fact that my fiance doesn't know about this blog and I know he won't bother looking for it when I am just plotting ways to just exist and not exist at the same time. The fact is I gave up on the Lord and Lady Blessing me for anything, I just have to work really hard. 

I figured if I work harder now than ever, I won't get hurt again, I just feel like this was ruined all because of something I had no control over. Now I have to figure out what I am doing with my life, I just know that I can't stay with my fiance anymore, I know we can't be a couple anymore because it is just too hard to be together now. 

While I know that we have been a couple since 2010, its been an amazing 11 years, but sadly it has to come to an end eventually. Nothing ever stays the way it should, and since I'm too flawed, I can't be with anyone.

I picked the one person I felt was it, then it just fell apart, I'm at fault for this and I honestly know that it will always be me. I can't fix it and it will just have to fester for a long time, I hate my life, I always lived in my sister's damn shadow, and yet...why did she have to be the one to die? It should have been me. If I had died, nobody would have missed me or had anything nice to say about me. My sister was more active in the family, I was just the stupid dreamer and Star Wars fan loser. 

The dream of writing a book is the most stupid thing I ever came up with, no one will read it and I know no one would want it to continue. I just felt the need to write down as much as I can just before I have to leave this blog. 

Truthfully, I wish I could have found something better with my life, I write a stupid novel and yet here I am just wondering if I should just tell people I'm talented at all. 

While I think about this, I wonder what will happen, if I stay, I have to endure more emotional distrust and hatred aimed at me by a person who thinks my existence is bad. Or if I just chose to look for jobs in another state like I am looking through my company, I don't want to leave, but I know for a fact that stay with these people, I am just going to be treated like I am drama.

I am also going to cease working on projects at home and go out as much as I can to build up income to leave for good. I know I love my fiance, but the relationship is dying and fast, I feel like its just not a good thing for either of us. I love him, but I have to think what's good for us both for a change.

Had to Switch Accounts

 Due to work, I had to change this account to work with my work account so I can get a certain application to work. I can no longer use this blogger unless I am at work for whatever reason. So for those getting book news I have a new blog so I will be getting that to you as soon as possible, if you go to LJ: NagiNaoe101, you will find more information. Thanks for following me

Went to Denver Pop Culture Con

While I usually write all the time, I am still a little tired at times of these kind of things, but it was a must see event. I am still tired from yesterday and laughed a little at the idea. I'm a bit on the road to getting the final bits of editing done. As my Tumblr is saying it, I am ready and I will start typing it again.

So I am going to post a few pics of what I have seen.

As I am a weakling for The Magicians series, I had to go see Summer Bushil and it was awesome to meet the woman who signed my copy of the book. ^_^ I am very pleased with that and inspired.

So as you can see, I am finding other fans of the show, so I am totally pleased! I am happy to see the fact that we are out there.

Now I must get to the grind stone of sorts start working on my own story. I am setting up my space again in my room and we will be preparing to type up the story I have worked so ard on and there will be more artwork. This is my excitement!

Hello! I'm back!

All right, so apparently, I lost my author's page on Google+ oh well...I will be working on a new author's page soon, and might be putting it on...FB. So far I am not going to be going into detail of what I have been doing the last few months, most of it has been working on panels, other on my book...the rest is just me sleeping.

I am battling a head cold so I am not entirely awake while writing this. V_V Sorry but that happens when you are ill.

Other than that convention news I will be at StarFest 2019 on Saturday and hanging with my sister. We are horror and sci-fi buffs so no lie this will be the best ever, its the first time we sisters are seen in public and she has met people in my crowd.

I am getting read for 2019

I am still tired, I'm still working toward my book and also doing some writing contests.

I got to go to Daku Con which was a great convention the people there were amazing, I'm hoping when the conventions are for next year, I get to 2 of them. Sadly for me I have to take a break due to money and also my own health which took a bit of a back seat.

I am partially blind at the moment considering I have a cataract in my right eye. So seeing is kind of a pain in the neck, but as this is a writing blog I need to work on getting through this whole thing and start writing more.

I have met some great people in a chat room on FB who are giving me some clarity of what  want as a writer. I have tried to vent about it to my fiance which was not the greatest idea, but it was still a good way to get my head on straight about what I want in a story.

Truthfully Daku Con was the great end of the year and it was a wonderful moment in my life that I could see the world around me. Things have changed and people have changed so I don't hate the things that happened in my past, and I have Lynn to thank for also being an inspiration for a character because my old Vixen is certainly going to need Lynn.

I am at Daku Con, no pics yet

Well...I am doing the run through of my panels and enjoying a bit of a break even though I am still worrying about my laptop, my panels for tomorrow are not as extensive or weird. Though this one which is my Japanese Urban Legends panel is still pretty big and one of the ones that I spent the most time researching and working with.

I am giving credit to blameitonjorge, a YouTuber who is very interesting and has posted some interesting media as of late that has made my panels much easier on the research end. He also does a lot of work that has gotten me information that I would not regularly find just by doing more research into my panel. The truth is that research and also working with others helps get the information and I do love having to look at his profile and also learn he is a great person to talk to regarding the work.

I am still trying to finish up some of the research just for tonight and hope that I don't mess up. I'm going to be working through not just this, but next year's panel on Japanese Horror Media and a few other crazy Japanese stories.

I am also going to be getting a group together to do "Ghost Shit! Ghost Story: Audience Participation and Shit Show!" It is me making fun of the show and also allowing the audience to give some feedback to this Anime flop.

As for my writing panel, which is the smallest concern, I am doing something on Adult Fan Fiction and also how to write complicated adult situations. The truth is that smut is not always the easiest thing to write and yeah, I am going to be sending people to a porn fiction site that will help in writing sex scenes. Sometimes you have to go to a porn site just to get that kind of help, it helped me write those scenes a few times in adult fan fiction (and no I don't do rape). The truth is that many people are pretty strange when it comes to that kind of things...so I have to make that point that not everyone will be comfortable about going to a site that is also talking about sex constantly.

The last panel is a fan panel, so that one is not going to be as annoying as the writing one, though I am excited about showing some funny stuff to people even with NO DVD player. Hell, pointing people to sits and crazy shit helps.

Ready to test out!

Yup, that is right, I am revamping the entire story yet again, the truth is, I was frustrated the last few times I sat down to type it up and then went screw it! The truth is, that even when I'm ready to write, I'm about to throw in the towel...there is just something so frustrating about this.

So yeah, I am giving myself a bit of a break and starting to work on some panels for Daku Con 2019, yeah, I am planning ahead of schedule as I planned last year for the panels for 2018. The fact is, that I start that work and research right after con and start working through the problems and then updating information if I need it.

Also for next year, I am going to do round one of real editing for my book.

I am dropping out of StarFest 2019 due to scheduling conflicts with Colorado Anime Fest, I can go to one, but not both!

Daku Con is a few days away and I finished up work on the panels just within days. I am also working to help friends out. My former friend, Lynda is going to be there and yes, we made up in the most awesome way because guess what she is basically having the same medical problems and we both need someone to lean on to talk things out with. She also looks like she needs really good friends other than the three she has currently, so my friends and I are going to be adopting her!

About to give up...

People are cruel, that is a given, the truth is that yes, a short story was a victim, but it was my name attached to it and I felt terrible for writing it. Most often times there are is a sense of regret to write a story about something I like, I am just not trying to let it get to me, but it made me question my worth as a writer.

I know it was a review from nearly 10 years ago, but it haunts me still.

I was terrified my former friend would know the truth. The fact is that after 2015, she was not so close to me, but I knew she was upsetting me a bit. The fact is that many people who get upset with me are the ones who think I might write something I regret in my own story.

I have no patience for some people and it was because of that that it gets me in trouble. I had a former friend who was homeless and he mooched off me as a friend and it hurt, I figured most homeless by choice believe as he does. I was angry and lashed out because people need to stop using others to get by.

I worked so hard and yet, I had a former friend who tore me a new one for actually using Obamacare for my medical issue and then was shamed for even getting sick. I was later told by others he has cancer himself and yet, he used the fact I did preventive cancer treatments as something cosmetic. I was furious and lashed out at people who seemed to believe that being sick was my fault.

Now as I write my book and I realized one thing that even if I publish, I could be expected to deal with these said people or person again. The most trying is that one of them acts as if in order to be friends with a person, one has to change for her benefit and no one else's. She also expected me to give up writing The Dragon's Library and write in a style that was not mine.

I don't understand the whole concept of making modernization when it benefits little to anyone when it is in the concept of writing. I write what I feel is needed and to have fun, the fact is that if it was work like some Ghost Writer, I would rather die. I am writing for myself and for fun, and people should understand. I never understood people who put down others just to make themselves look big, this is why I find people who tell me to grow up and that my concept of imagination is mentally ill.

I have dreamed of being a writer since I was little and yet, we have these so-called supporters of one group or other telling others to grow up or else. Since when has imagination been a mental illness? 

Unintentional going to con, NDK

Yes, I am a Colorado local and I attended Nan Desu Kan only from Sunday and did not intend much interest of it. I am usually interested in Sci-Fi, Fantasy, and novels, not much interest in Anime due to past drama inside their community. They seem to only focus on what is popular and not care about other's feelings and it kind of hurts when you have people who think that you are just a doormat to walk on.

The truth is, I had fun because there were a bunch of people who like the same kind of Anime I like, one being Slayers, Detective Conan, and a few others. I have been inspired as a writer when it comes to stories like these. Slayers reminded me of Dungeons and Dragons and sometimes even Legend. I wish some people would realize that I have a great love also for Detective Conan who is an amazing character who gets little to no respect in the fandom.

Truthfully, I would love to be a fan again and enjoy it, but after hearing about what happened to someone and a bunch of drama that followed, there is a reason I kind of want to stay away more. I will be cosplaying Detective Conan for fun, nothing competitive and I just think people who do something out of spite are immature. There are reasons that many people do not like us, we bring so much baggage nowadays.

I would much rather go back to NDK with the memories I have with the first time seeing models and also enjoying the artshow. That is the most honest answer I can give as M.M. Fenney the writer, the person who people wanted as a doormat kind of died, and she wants to just go back to being who she is. The writer in me will mention that as I see this, I want to go to see the models, the amazing artists and also the people in artist alley.

The sad news is my eyes are not always what they used to be and I have a cataract in one eye so seeing is the hardest part for me. So here I was talking to people and walking a con floor with a migraine from hell, and Aspirin does not work for me AT ALL! So yes, I am taking four tiny pills of aspirin to just function at a convention. Gee...I hope I can get this fixed soon.

So anyway with the con out of the way and I am ordering pictures, I will be ready for Daku Con, my panels are set.

My Panel's Are Up

Basically, I'm working on my panels for 2018-2019, yes, these are pretty late in the year, but Daku Con is in November and Colorado Anime Fest is in April 2019. So here I am at the end of July working on something I should have started back in June and compiling information. The truth is I was distracted by working on both my book and a fanfic.

While I admit yes, fan fiction was and is still a thing I do some of the time, it is to blow off steam and honestly, some don't end up on my pages due to issues I have had with some people. The reviews I got back in the day are pretty damn funny and yes, I cannot believe I wrote some of these stories because in all yes, they are all pretty bad.

My fiance has found me an artist for my book even though some of my artwork is my own doing and still as you can see for my blog, yes, some of the artwork is MINE. Truthfully I do not talk about the book work at the moment because I had a bit of a shock to deal with.

I have my opinions on books and have always disliked C.S. Lewis because he seemed to be always talking Religiously about things in his novels. There are just some things I try to avoid in my writing and that is putting a religion on my characters or an overtone of religions. The fact that I have one species in my story that live entirely without magic and yet are perfectly all right with that kind of things. Then there is the fact I did not write my stories to focus on religious aspects.

So that has been it so far. I am not really up for much chatter on the matter of the book work right now, it is more I am finishing up details and closing out my first book, then unto the second and third.

Delayed yet again and panels for November

I am delayed in finishing my posts yet again, and this is all due to my own problems being tired and working. Does not help that I am floating myself and fiance and the only breadwinner right now, so my focus has been split down the middle between bills that are late and my panels.

I am working on three panels, two are finished and finalized, the other is yet to have its powerpoint built so don't try and get me to write it all down. I am still researching material on Japanese Urban Legends.

I am also tired of being asked to do things and then at the last minute a friend or someone else will back out so yeah, that kind of happens. 

The saddest part is I cannot make Westercon this year and will be working on my panels and also writing my stories. Writing fantasy is getting harder and with how I see the world changing negatively, I am terrified if I do publish, my story will be lost in the midst of people who do not understand me. T_T Such is the way of things, but I will be working more

Setting up for writing draft 1

I have started working on my first draft, but my confidence is kind of shot, truthfully, I'm basically feeling cheap.The fact is I refused to allow my ex to touch any draft of the book I am working on and the reason is simple. He thinks he is all that an a bag of chips, mostly he feels he is entitled to stuff and comes from money. I really do not feel it makes him worth while to edit me or speak to me on the matter of my own writing.

I have been attempting to brighten my mood and I have not eaten in a day, which is not normal, usually I will have cereal or something, but I am just not interested in eating while I write. Not to mention, considering that right now, I am alienated to my writing, considering my ex is snippy and likes to dominate a room and attention.

I cannot afford to move out and live alone, but I really wish I could give my fiance his space and his friends. I would accept a job in Broomfield.

A convention attempt

I made it to Colorado Anime Fest on its last day, I was very impressed with the convention and for the most part of the people who were there. I would not mind working this convention as a panelist and also being again able to bring people the love of what research can bring.

The truth is, today was an escape from worrying about writing, I was wanting to just sit down and enjoy my photography and enjoy a convention.

This escape made so much easier and also made it more fun to come up with ideas of what my world in my stories should be like. I am trying so hard to convey something and somehow going to Colorado Anime Fest was well worth it.

I am still working on that dang scene

I have not spoken about what is going on in the scene in general because I have been sworn not talk about it. The truth is, that a scene of which a person gets their ego knocked down to the point he kind of deserves doesn't always work.

A scene that I was unhappy with...

Musculed through a scene that I did not like and though it was part of the story, I decided not to talk about it for a while, but now that I fixed it, at least I hope so.

A character based off an Anime....Full Metal Panic! (NOT ALCHEMIST)

Okay, I loved the series Full Metal Panic! yes, that's the series, it is freaking silly and also there is a few problems with the show. I did realize it was a comedy.

Also I designed a character with the cast of the show in mind, the truth is one of the characters is actually from the show. There was just so much weird crap from the show that I had to work on.

Trying to take a break

I had a stressful break brought on the fact that there is just someone that comes to the house who just wants me to move out. Me being there just throws everything off for him, he thinks his way is the only way to do anything. When I set a boundary I'm suddenly the one at fault, so I decided to give up and let this person just have their way.

Truthfully, people say this is your home, but when this person is here, it is NOT my home, I'm just something in the way. Even when I came home from my bike ride, he just acted like I wasted time and did something wrong. He was glaring at me or waiting for me to ask what I did wrong.

The truth is I was sort of talking about the issue that bike might have if I check the shocks again and I will be checking the rest of the tire pressure and stance. This is the first time I owned a bike like this that is purely a mountain bike that has a few constructional issues. Something I will bring up to Lee and only him when we're alone.

The truth is that this has slowed down the Dragon's Library because if I even publish, this one person will persist that Lee and I did this with his help. I want to independently publish and not deal with some richie rich like this person. The truth is, I don't think rich people will read what I have to write and I do not even think that I want the rich to read my book because they will just be some kind of snob and act like I owe them something.

I have never liked rich people, they always snub the poor and treat others like they are supposed to be walked on. I get tired of being walked on, when I write the book it is my freedom from their limits. I want to write because it is something I love.