Going to a Convention in November

Well...I'm doing 3 panels at a convention, I have been preparing and excitedly waiting for the news, I am pretty much working my tail off. I have not said anything to many people about it, other than my friends on Facebook. The truth is that I know that people are still jumping to conclusions about what I'm doing.

The truth is, my fiance has about 7 panels and half the time I'm hoping that he is able to help pay for the hotel room that I am helping him with. I'm also working on a few other things too. I have edited and re-edited my work, but I'm still not sure what I'm doing anymore, I'm just getting frustrated. I am sure that it is just me needing this convention as a break.

I have been having some issues in my head about what is going on; I had a nightmare regarding a former friend showing up at the convention. Though I can see someone leading me away and the words, "You don't need to see this," the truth is, I don't know who is leading me away, but my fiance is the one blowing up. He isn't blowing up at me, it's at this former friend and about the fact that she won't let things go or about the fact that she was chased out.

How this all started was in 2015, with a faithful problem at the hospital and my fiance being sick, my former friend was someone who wanted me to be thrown out. She was not interested in improving my life, but she was more interested in making everyone follow her around. She actually wanted to declaw my cat, she wanted me to throw away things from my hobbies because she did not like it. So I decided to put my foot down, my friends did too.

I was asked if it was worth all this pain and my fiance said that Star Wars my hobby and this girl just wanted to take it all away. So in 2015, Lee and I decided and made a pact to never let these things happen again. To this day, I'm scared of her showing up, that she would make a confrontation, which she never has since because of my insolation of friends.

The truth is, that if I see her, I'm certainly ignoring her...she is not exactly what I would call a nerd, she's not even aware of what it is to be nerdy. All she cares about is writing porn